Birthday blues

Follow the yellow brick road….

I celebrated the weekend with some close friends as it was my birthday. I’m 31! How odd is that?! It feels good, but somewhat strange at the same time, so I’m not sure what to make of it. In my 20’s I actually dreaded hitting my 30’s. So here is the bit I never thought I’d actually say - being 30 actually rocks! I’ve observed one thing amongst most of my friends, and that is during our 20’s we felt we were under a lot of pressure, what with university and getting a career being the main highlights. With those two things in my way I felt my path onwards and upwards was obstructed

However come 30, I’m free! I just don’t give a balls about anything. There’s no pressure well apart from marriage but that can wait! The last two years in my book have been so fun filled and enjoyable that I’m glad I’m at this stage in life. I’ve got the perfect job where I get to travel about a lot and generally abuse my position while at the same time having a lot of responsibility, which is a major confidence builder. A lot of you are wondering that I’m talking a load of bollocks (exsqueeze me!) but seriously - don’t knock it until you’ve reached this stage.

Anyway, as said I celebrated my birthday by hooking up with some old mates. As is typical on one’s birthday I was totally ratarsed inside 3hrs and unable to grasp the concept of simple English as I ordered a pizza! After a few more hours of eating, falling over and general nonsense talk we then proceeded to go for a walk for fresh air. That’s when things went wrong, as there was a fireworks display in a nearby park. We all had no money so we jumped over a fence…and immediately got caught by the patrolling security guard! We were then thrown out :P I’m not sure how I got home after that as I passed out.

As I woke up on Sunday morning, I had no hangover and actually felt fresh but so badly down. Everyone else was still asleep in my mate’s house but I couldn’t stop thinking about my good bud Tasmin. We had a lovely relationship, details which I won’t get into but I miss her terribly now and it’s only just begun to set in. She’s off getting into some arranged marriage back home, something I was so strongly against but couldn’t interfere. My heart knows that she didn’t want that but had little choice but to go along with it. As I let my mind drift I wished that she was here with me, she was missing that night and she would have made it complete. I let my mind drift a lot more and smiled, I still had memories - good ones.

Credit to Objects and Pixels for the above image. One lovely site to visit.

6 Responses to “Birthday blues”


  1. 1 Markybooy!!

    Chin up pal! Plenty more out there :) You kept the birthday quiet this year didn’t you mate? How come? Glad you had a good time anyway geeze, enjoy your pressie :D

  2. 2 Ayesha

    I miss her too :( She better come back to the Uk soon or I will be very unhappy! I’m only 21 so I’ve got a long way to go until I hit my 30’s and to tell you the truth, it really does scare me. I can’t imagine having a career thats all.

  3. 3 Lorine McGinnis

    A lot of people feel that way about growing older. It’s your maturity that eases the fear once you hit your mid 30’s. Since most people have their lives already setup for them eg having a family, things are a lot easier.

    During my early 20’s I was panicking about everything in life. I had no direction, nothing. Upon reaching 30 it had all changed and my fears banished and I felt so much more confident about everything. It’s great! :)

  4. 4 Ayesha

    I dread reaching 30. I’m scared of so many things, and it sends a shiver down my spine when I think of the things that will soon happen over the next few years. I wish I could say in my 20’s.

  5. 5 Lorine McGinnis

    Being older isn’t as bad as you think. It’s mainly because your perceptions at your present age are just too used to your everyday goings on in life. It’s hard for someone at your age to visualise what things will be like later in life but its important not to fear the future either :)

  6. 6 Felon

    Nice review on the headset Kainz, you could of modeled it though :)

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