Monthly Archive for September, 2008

An Lor Xen

Life’s a bitch – as the saying goes.

One moment you’ll be plain sailing, living every day to the fullest and the next moment things will be crashing down around you bringing you to despair. Things have been too good on my side – for far too long and it was only a matter of time I guess. Suffice to say I balls’d things up nicely.

Recently I’ve been so down that I pondered if there ever was a way back up. Most of what I did is purely my own fault and I admit I’m a fool to have gone the route I did but that’s life. You make mistakes and you should try and learn from them. I don’t think I have and despite me rambling on here as I am I think I’m about to enter even more pain then I’m already in.

I am writing this at present because I have a week off from work to ‘cool’ down as it were and get some R&R. My work began to suffer and a lot of people noticed my flash temper emerging and well I now have an opportunity to reflect on quite a few things as a result. The past two weeks have been rather taxing, both emotionally and mentally and all of that just took its toll on me – something I thought could never happen to be honest as I’ve always controlled myself too well. Guess I aren’t as good as I thought…so what am I on about?

Well have you ever fallen for someone at work? I guess a lot of you are answering yes here. Well have you ever fallen madly for someone *apparently married at work? That quietened a few of you down. OK, have you ever fallen for someone at work who is *apparently married and at the same time become close friends with them whilst you’re in a relationship with someone else? I hear silence…

*Could be divorced!